rainning day.mean i'm crying now.

feel..

nothing...

i dont want my friend treat me good.

i want lovely life.

i want do every thing without you people.

you people hate me.

ok.

i won't call you or ask you what.

i really tired of my thinking.

i know many people hate me include my friend.

i not need have best friend or what.

cause i scare i'm hurting them.

just like Jesus..

i'm hurting him now.

and all the people..

i scare now..

i scare anything..

i dont want friend care for me.

i'm not a good friend for you people.

i hate myself.

i hate my patient.

i hate everything on me.

i'm a bad girl.

i'm not a good girl for you all.

i guess i'm a teribble girl.

sometime i dunno who am i.

i lost myself.

lazy.

stupid.

now..

i'm feeling want to cry on the bed.

after cry.

then i'm going asleep.

i want happy day and happy mood.

but God dont want give me.

i want everyday have a happy mood,happy day..

but cannot.

i hope i'm living at outside there.

example born at Johor..

i love outside place.

can hang out with friend.

or other.

i really hope i'm living outside there..

but..pity..

i'm living at small town.

Bintangor..

i hate myself.

misunderstand..

then angry..

really..

really..

why i'm so fat?

why i'm so black?

why i'm ugly?

why so many people say at me?

why why why???

who can tel me the reason?